[00:10.24]Living is one of the most terrifying things for me
[00:18.32]To hear the ones I love and care about say things like
[00:23.85]How happy I make them and how they see all these positive things within me
[00:29.89]Because I feel it's within human nature to hurt one another
[00:34.31]No matter how hard you try not to
[00:44.60]And I know, no matter what, I'll always end up hurting someone
[00:49.19]Because no one is just like you
[00:51.25]They all hurt people just by thinking you're failing in a different way than them
[00:55.84]And I know that doesn't make you a bad person but I don't ever wanna imagine hurting the people I care about just by being myself
[01:03.64]So it makes me think maybe I should just push you all away and cut all ties and admire from afar
[01:09.55]But you say that I'll just hurt worse
[01:12.03]And to be honest, I couldn't push you away even if I try
[01:16.31]So I'm sorry if one day I'm not good enough
[01:41.21]I have something to say, I pushed it back in my mind for so long, always biting my tongue
[01:51.53]Always running away, constantly, forever, like a pendulum swinging
[01:59.36]And I don't know who swung me this way but I hate this
[02:04.66]This feeling of emptiness, I could be just like you
[02:13.08]But I'd rather die than live a long life without meaning
[02:25.39]Was I born to fail in life?
[02:30.05]Or was I just born to try?
[02:35.30]Don't try to tell me what to believe when you believe in the things that make you so weak
[02:44.33]Because even when I open my eyes, everything's black, everything's empty
[02:50.76]To the world, put this chip on my shoulder that I chose to let myself 'cause of the way that I see things
[02:57.10]I don't know, I don't care because it doesn't matter
[03:03.53]At the end of the day, as much as I hate to admit it
[03:08.82]I just wanna smile, I just want love